Sunny… with an Unexpected Thunderstorm

Today started out okay, I mean no worse than any other Thursday really. I felt a bit naked without a Dark-Hunter novel in hand, but other than that it was a typical day. And it even had some potential because I got 950 words into that lake scene I mentioned yesterday, but then…

Around noon I got a call at work from Mom that Dad had been sent to the hospital for a possible heart attack.

Before everyone freaks out the way I did, let me say that it looks like that is not the case, but they are keeping him overnight to continue tests to be absolutely sure. Thank GOD!

Still, when I got this call it sent my mind into a whirlwind and I lost it. Obviously, everyone knows how much their parents mean to them, but somehow when the idea of something terrible happening to them occurs it really awakens you in a way you might not even know exists in you. I seriously felt my inner self screaming, “Please don’t take my Daddy from me!” My Daddy? Yeah, I’m 28 – it’s been a long time since I’ve referred to him as Daddy, but suddenly I was this little girl incapable of imagining a world where he didn’t exist, where I couldn’t call upon him when I needed to. Just the idea alone tore through me in a very unexpected way.

I really hope it truly was just a scare, but it still disturbs me to know it could have happen. And I’m hoping my Dad will adjust his lifestyle to make sure such a thing doesn’t happen. His blood pressure is so high he already takes 3 medications for it. He’s too young to be having these sort of complications. And even though no one’s ever ready to see their parents go, I’m certainly not even close right now.

Despite the fear I felt earlier and the unnecessary torture I put myself through the day ended with some positive notes. Heath and I got to see my sister and spend some time with her at the hospital and then back at our place (which always makes me happy). And a Victoria Secrets package with all new bras, undies, and pj’s arrived (which also makes me happy). I was in desperate need of some new under garments and there’s just something rewarding about the new feel of such quality material against your skin.

Peace – Sarah


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6 Responses to "Sunny… with an Unexpected Thunderstorm"

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  1. alice_vd

    September 10, 2010 at 1:00 am

    I know the feeling. Thinking, even for a second, that you’re about to loose someone you care about… *shivers* It’s never a good feeling. I hope it was just a false alarm.

    • SarahWhisted

      September 10, 2010 at 2:05 am

      Nope, definitely not. Even wore myself out with worry, literally. I’m really hoping it’s not something worse too. Thanks!

  2. gracious_anne

    September 10, 2010 at 1:11 am

    I’m so glad your dad is okay. My dad has high blood pressure too. It’s scary thinking of them getting older and things happening.
    I’m glad they took the precaution though.

    • SarahWhisted

      September 10, 2010 at 2:07 am

      Thanks. It is a scary thing. Makes me feel even more determined to make sure I’m healthy now while it’s easier to correct than later when it might be dangerous to my life.

  3. edgyauthor

    September 10, 2010 at 1:40 am

    *hugs* So sorry you had to go through this false alarm, but–barring anything that may happen overnight–luckily all it turned out to be was that! Even though death is a given for everyone, it becomes so incredibly unbearable the moment that thought seems to be a reality. I know *I* freak out just thinking about my mom not being here one day, so once that’s actually true, or even close to true…yii.

    I’m sending positive vibes your dad’s way!

    • SarahWhisted

      September 10, 2010 at 2:17 am

      *loves virtual hugs* Thanks 😉

      I worry about both my parents because my Mom’s got health issues too, but neither of my parents seem to take it very seriously. My sister’s a nurse, she’s constantly lecturing them, but they never listen.

      Thanks for the + vibes!

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